Wednesday, November 28, 2007

I remember when, I lost my mind...

In case you are wondering, I am most certainly not OK. I am finally out of the house and my divorce is moving forward. I am living in the new house with La Petit and my parents. It is exactly what I wanted.

Enter New Guy. He has turned out to become a bit possessive, jealous, consuming and, well, let's just say crazy. When it is good, it is so good. When it is bad and I am not giving him exactly what he needs, well it is g-d awful and scary.

I am having a really hard time deciphering what is real and what is in my head here. I do not not do relationships well to begin with. I will post more when I can make some sense of what is going on in my head and I can share.

Hope you all are well.

8 comments:

Beth said...

(((hugs))) be good to yourself

pat said...

I am at least glad you posted to let us all know you are still alive and kicking. Take it slow and steady, Kel.

vicariousrising said...

Oh no. I am so glad to hear from you, but I wish it weren't to hear that this new man is another problem. I hope you can get unentangled before it gets worse.

I really am happy to see you posting again. Be well. Lots of love to you.

~MsManna~ said...

(((hugs))) I think you are starting to understand yourself and your relationships. It does sound like a breakthrough is on the way. You see more than you think. Keep coming back!

TodayTodayToday said...

At this point you should be asking your self "Is this relationship healthy for me right now?" and not "Does this relationship make me feel good sometimes and fill a void in my life?". Im not saying this relationship is one or the other. If you end up in another bad relationship I will still like you and read your blog. I know thats high on your list of things you want in life.

Sylvia said...

Run as fast as you can. Take care.

Tab said...

{{Trust the process Kel}}
You can trust yourself my friend..
Just practice listening to those instincs..they aren't there by mistake.You do what you need to do to function well on your new journey.Maybe this love interest isn't the right one or maybe it isn't the right time? (exhale here)
Remember,when you've reach the end of your rope , tie a knot and hang on.And for gawd sakes,keep in touch with the people you know are "for real" in your life and heart..((ahem!))
Love you,
Tab xo

Namenlosen Trinker said...

So glad to hear from you, Kel, even though the news is not all good. Maybe it's time to step back from any relationships and get comfortable with being with yourself only?