Tuesday, April 17, 2007

What a long strange trip...

Yesterday I stood in the pouring rain and watched as my Aunt was placed in her final resting place. She left this world the way she lived in it... in great class and style. I was asked to give the second reading at her funeral mass. I was touched and honored to have been asked and accepted with great pride. I am not a great Catholic. In fact I am not even a good Catholic. But I was surprised to have read this at a funeral, I thought this was more of a wedding reading. In fact, I have personally given this reading at a friends wedding a few years earlier. Either way, I did not trip on my way up to the alter, I did not stumble over any of the words or stutter, and I managed to maintain some eye contact while reading. I think my Auntie would have been proud. I would like to share this reading with all of you in honor of my beloved Aunt.

If I have all the eloquence of men or of angels, but speak without love, I am simply a gong booming or a cymbal clashing. If I have the gift of prophecy, understanding all the mysteries there are, and knowing everything, and if I have faith in all its fullness, to move mountains, but without love, then I am nothing at all. If I give away all that I possess, piece by piece, and if I even let them take my body to burn it, but am without love, it will do me no good whatever.Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous; love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offence, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.

Maybe this was the work of my HP trying to tell me something? Maybe I have been so wrong in trying to define love and that maybe a real love will someday come to me?

Anyway, time for some gratitude...
  • The relationship I was blessed to have shared with my Aunt for her time in this world.
  • That I was able to be there for my mom in her time of need at this very painful time in her life.
  • For a good job that pays me even when I have to take time off to be somewhere else.
  • For the Prince seeming to want to be near me so badly lately.
  • That I have my health.
  • For the love and support of my blogger buddies. I cant tell you what that means to me these days.
  • For my G-d who must surely have a plan for me.


Tab said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Kel.
You sound so accepting though and that can only bring you peace.
Thank you for sharing~

working mom NYC said...

Hi Kel,
You seem to have found a source of inner peace, and I am always moved by your gratitude lists. I am glad that you can take comfort in knowing that you could be there for your mother in her sorrow. It was a beautiful eulogy. I am glad that your Aunt was able to share her abundant love with you for the years that she was on this earth.
Big hug,