I am having a really hard time learning to let go of so many things in my life that I need to let go of. I know that it is time to move forward and divorce Asshole. I know he will never stop drinking and will never be the man I need for him to be and I know I will never love him that way or want to have an intimate relationship with him again. And yet, I can not seem to let go.
Since the prince is living with his grandparents, I am fooling myself into believing that I am letting my controlling issues go, but in reality I am just displacing these feelings.
I feel like such a failure as a parent, as a wife, as an employee, and as a person. I know this too shall pass but when? When will I grow the F up and take care of business???