Monday, April 27, 2015

No More Words...

They say that is rare that lightening will never strike the same place twice.  Well, sadly I am here to tell you that Heroin and Death by overdose can and does strike twice, and in my unfortunate case, it has struck twice within 5 years, right down to the same day.

To clarify, this past January 8, 2015 my younger son, my little prince, Daniel, lost his battle with addiction and left this world for the next.  On the 5 year  anniversary of his older brothers passing (January 8, 2010).  Daniel was 19 years old.  The cause of death was "Acute intoxication by the combined effects of Heroin and Xanax"

Truly.  This can't be it.


26 comments:

KK said...

Kel, My heart is broken for you. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you are going through. I wish I could I could give you a hug right now. There are just no words to say. You will continuously be in my prayers. I can only pray god gives you the strength to keep moving forward in your own life. Sending so much love your way.

Syd said...

Oh Kel, I don't know what to say. There are really no words for this second great loss. I am thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way. I wish that there was something I could do for you.

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry. I know nothing I say will help. I too have buried a son and have another son fighting this demon. How can this be happening to our children. May you find peace and the will to go on. Prayers for you. Lauren

Laura said...

I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry for your loss and the pain you are enduring.

Tori said...

Kel, I can't imagine your indescribable pain. I am so, so sorry my heart hurts for you, for your family and your beautiful boys. I am at a loss of words.

Bar said...

There are no words. My heart aches for you.

Dawn diDonato said...

My heart breaks for you. I pray for God to bring peace to your heart. I wish I could do orr say something but, there are no words :(

madyson007 said...

Kel please tell me that you will choose to continue living a life. I am scared for you and so very very heart broken.

Bristolvol said...

I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I am just stunned, I cannot conceive of having to endure such a loss twice. My prayers are with you and will be each day. I pray more than anything that you can find peace; I am so very sorry for your loss and your pain. HerBigSad

Summer said...

Dear Kel, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Katie said...

My heart started racing as soon as I read your post-Please know how terribly sorry I am that this has happened to you-the loss of both of your sons is beyond comprehension -my son is knocking on deaths door addicted to Heroin and on klonopin-we drove 1500 miles to see him and he refused help-the police said there was nothing we could do-he is an adult-he is skinny with dark raccoon eyes-I pray he gets arrested and is in jail soon-I was so worried about him keeping a clean record and now i wish he would be safe in jail for years-Please try to remember your son for who he really was when he was growing up, not the person he became because of the drugs-hugs to you!

Anonymous said...

You have been a good Mom, they loved you very much, never forget that. My sincere condolences. I hope that you will continue to write about your journey and your recovery. God bless you and your beautiful sons.

Carol said...

All of our mother's hearts are feeling this great loss with you and sharing your grief.
You will not be grieving alone.
God will give you the strength to bear this.

Topper said...

Dear lady, I'm so very sorry for your loss. You're in my prayers. Your dear sons are at peace now. I'm so very sorry.

Anonymous said...

There is nothing I can say, you are in my thoughts and prayers

Anonymous said...

All I can do is pray for you. No one should have to endure such pain, but I hope you will find some wisdom, insight on the other side of this intense, unbearable grief. And I hope you continue to share your story with others and perhaps help save lives as you do. You are on this earth for a reason. Please hang on. -Gal

Lisa said...

I grieve with you, for you, for your boys, for my boy. I'm crying out to God on my knees for you. Oh God, PLEASE....only you know what she needs, bathe her in it now.

Annette said...

Oh kel, my heart is broken for you.

valerie plaster said...

I cannot wrap my brain around what you have been ask to endure. I have followed your story and journey. You have inspired and lifted me up. May collective prayers and loving energy wrap around you.

Athena said...

Kel, I am so very sorry for your loss... I don't know the right thing to say... You were one of my first blogger friends when my journey with my daughter's addiction began, and you gave great strength and insight. ~ Hugs (so many hugs)

Anonymous said...

Dear god- so sorry.

John

Anonymous said...

Dear god. So sorry.

John

Anonymous said...

I'm so very sorry for you, and so shocked that it has happened to you twice. Praying for you.

Liz said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful sons.

Beth said...

I am so sorry to hear about Daniel. Lots of hugs and prayers to you.