Wednesday, June 24, 2009

What's it all about?

Taking the cue from Syd today and sharing a little about what I'm about....

  1. Today I am all about me, it's my Birthday, and I love my birthday, and all of the attention that comes with it. Narcissistic much?
  2. Feeling proud of myself that as a single mother, I managed to make the best possible summer camp plans for my Little Prince, and pay for it, without any interaction from his father, who could care less.
  3. Coffee. I consume way too much of it, but I love it.
  4. Having good friends that really care about me and make me a better person.
  5. The sadness that I felt last night when my Mom told me about our recently widowed cousin, who yesterday, took a walk with her daughter, my good friend, and went to the movies with her grandchildren. My mom was half-way through a giant bottle of cheap red wine when she told me about this, and the realization that we are never going to do those things, well, it just hurts.
  6. I am not a perfect mother and my children are not perfect. I'm learning though, that I am doing my best to be good enough and they will either love me for it or have to deal with it in therapy later on. Such is life.
  7. I miss my father. Especially today on my birthday, he would have called me singing the Happy Birthday song to me all day.
  8. I do not however, miss his illness, pain and suffering. Sometimes God knows when to come calling for his sons.
  9. Red velvet cupcakes. Yummy.
  10. A flirty new skirt to wear on my birthday today.
  11. Being in a relationship with a good man. Although it is not ideal, it is good enough and I am learning to let things happen at that their own pace.
  12. My beautiful sweet pup. He loves me unconditionally, flaws and all.
  13. Letting go of the past. Slowly, but surely.
  14. Not having to own the Princes problems anymore.
  15. Enjoying planting a garden with my mother. All of the rain has really helped it flourish.
  16. Feeling hopeful about my future. I can make it on my own. I can find happiness. Even if I am alone.
  17. Looking forward to some alone time this summer. I'm feeling ready to get to know myself again. (Flaws and all)
  18. Reading and learning from the experiences of my blogger buddies. Even though I rarely comment anymore.
  19. Learning to cook with fine fresh ingredients. I never knew there could be real joy in cooking for the people in my life that I love, and planting my own fresh herbs for the first time this summer... cant wait to use them!
  20. Becoming more comfortable in my own skin. One day at a time...

So what are YOU all about right now?


Cat said...

Happy birthday Kel!

Loved the list - especially number 20.

Syd said...

Happy Birthday to you! And the thing is you can celebrate all week. Hope that you enjoy the new skirt, the cupcakes, the birthday deserve all of that and more.

Lou said...

Don't you sound like the well adjusted Birthday Girl!

I'm so happy to hear everything in this post (well, maybe not the cheap red wine). You are taking what comes with the right attitude.

Gabbi said...

Thank you!


pat said...

Uplifting post and happy birthday.

Pen to Paper said...

Alright... I'll play along, consider it your Birthday present.

I'm not your Dad but...

Happy Happy Birthday Kel my dear. Happy days will come to you all year. If I had a wish, well it would be... a Happy Happy Birthday to you from ME!!!

pat said...

Happy Birthday.

Annette said...

Happy Birthday! Loved your list. I could relate to a lot of it. Learning that we are "good enough" is a huge relief!

Eli said...

Great list. You mention what you don't have with your mother. Those things never really stop stinging, do they? But then I read later that you planted a garden with her. That sounds neat. Happy Birthday!

sKILLz said...

I hope you had fin and enjoyed your day!
I have alot to say and might post one myself.
I honestly don't know if I will answer all these questions but ya never know right?
Stay Up!