And so it begins....

This is my first blog, if thats what it is even called. Funny, the past few years I have followed a few bloggers thinking they were online journals and have enjoyed the odd feeling of somehow being privvy to someone elses private thoughts and diaries. Ok, so lets see. I woke up this morning feeling completely unrested and for the second time in two days thought about calling in sick today, but as always, thought better of it and got my self up and off to work. My older son was up early, banging around the house and was gone by 6:30 a.m. Thats never a good sign. I am confident he was up to some kind of no-good. Time will tell as it always does. Ok, so felt really depressed when I got up and decided once again that I am just not sure how much longer I can continue living like this. This morning, I did the math and decided that if I can get DJ into private school for next setember, I can get a divorce, sell the house and move, if I can convince A-hole to stay in town, HE can keep KC and let him graduate with his friends and maybe I can find some peace and get on with my life. The lonieliness is really really starting to get to me.