Feelings.

Disbelief
Confusion
Fear
Denial
Anger
Fear
Sadness
Rage
Terror
Disbelief

This is just a short list off the top of my head that I can think of when I remember first learning that my Prince was using drugs. The same list can alos apply to the many feelings I remember feeling the moments after I learned my Prince died of a drug overdose. It is almost like coming full circle on an emotional rollercoaster.